Oh my heart! This story was such a roller coaster of events and emotions. It was tragic and desperate, yet also filled with so much hope and optimism as love blossomed in the tundra of life. The blurb doesn't prepare you for the story that unfolds. I was completely hooked by Silas and Alanna's journey. Silas was ever hopeful and determined. He was stoic, powerful and commanding, but with such a vulnerable, gentle core. Alanna was stubborn and so strong in the face of adversity. Their story was complicated and mired in mystery and machinations. Their connection was intense and destined, and showcased that love truly conquers all. Such a fabulous read!

Bittersweet Memories is the 4th and final book in Catharina Maura’s Off-Limits series and this is the one I always hear people recommend! I recently binged the whole series and was looking forward to this one as I feel like each book in the series got better and better! And that was definitely true with this book, I loved it. I didn't waste enough of my time to find out whether they get together when she's 18... but I don't need to read it to know what's going to happen. This book is so well written, the memories the pain the love the bittersweet moments everything owns my heart. I have trouble rating this one because there were moments that I LOVED in this book, and moments that felt completely off based on the first half of the book. The writing was amazing, and I truly think that this is one of Catharina Maura's most stunning works. The story was a rollercoaster ride of emotions, but ultimately the plot felt all over the place and inconsistent to me.Oh and be prepared to fall in love with Si. The lengths he goes to for love will give you all the feels over and over again! You think you are getting typical girl meets boy at coffee shop, but girl has boyfriend, so boy is going to be all "alpha" about it but nope. Not at all, Silas is most definitely not a boy, and he most definitely isn't going to be all "alpha" because he is the alpha. the mmc one chapter later: “She looks up at me, her expression so deceptively innocent yet alluring. Does she realize how beautiful she is? She’s only sixteen, and she already looks like a vixen.” He looks at me, his gaze making my heart skip a beat. “There’s nothing I like more than seeing your name next to mine.” He pauses and shakes his head. “Wait, that’s not quite true. What I’d like even better is your first name paired with my last.”

I was really not ready for this novella to end; I needed so much more but I guess that will have to wait until the full-length novel.The first half of the book was INCREDIBLE. I fell in love with Alanna and Silas during the chapters set in the past, and I honestly would have read an entire book with that storyline. However, when they had that fight towards the end of the chapters set in the past, it felt completely random and out of character for Silas. Even more, once we got into present time that's where things felt off.

man there is a 5 year age difference ,,,, he is 21 years of age ??? finding an actually teenage attractive Girlfriend?” She repeats, her voice soft. I suppose I haven’t really called her that before today, but that’s exactly what she is. I smirk and grab her chin, lifting her face to mine. “It doesn’t sound right, does it? Don’t you think wife would sound so much nicer?” I smile at her even though my heart is aching. What would she say if I told her I designed this place with her in mind? This penthouse is everything we’ve ever wanted, our every dream and fantasy come true. This is exactly where she’s supposed to be.” Her characters flow from one book to another and I really wanted to find out more about Silas Sinclair and his Alanna. We see Alanna and Silas first meet when they’re both teenagers, after his father’s recent death Silas becomes homeless and living in a shelter. He and Alanna become fast friends and we see them really connect over the next few years. When Alanna’s father ends up passing away as well and insurance fraud comes into play, she finds herself moving into the shelter too. I loved seeing Alanna and Silas fall for one another, their friendship and then romance was so sweet to see and I just believed in their connection right away. When Alanna ends up getting into a car accident and losing her memories, the story definitely takes a turn!Alanna has never seen this man before but one meeting in an alley and she can't get him out of her head. Then she sees him later that night and everything starts to crumble around her. He is not just some random guy in an alley. He is much more.

Catharina Maura is an amazing Author. I started reading the Windsor series recently and while waiting for the newest book to come out, I decided to look at her past books.First of all, I was not expecting the amnesia plot and I wasn't that upset about it. I've never read a story where the character had gotten amnesia so I was intrigued and open-minded. I didn't so much mind the fact that she was with Silas's brother, because the girl's got amnesia, she doesn't know better. Plus, her mind went with someone the most similar to Silas. The part that felt extremely out of character though, was Silas being with another woman all while obsessively looking for his "soulmate". To me, it cheapened his passion for her and made it feel like he wasn't as into her and he kept stating. I know it's probably petty of me to think, but part of me hoped he'd stay celibate during their years apart, it would have made their relationship look much stronger to me, especially since he was again, searching for her this entire time. What are you doing?” I ask, unnerved by her silence. Alanna smiles up at me. “I’m going to burn this shirt.” I burst out laughing and pull her closer to me. “Okay, my little psycho… but can it wait?” I really don’t care if you don’t agree with me, please stop commenting ?? like I don’t need your negativity clogging my notifs. please get a life if all you do is argue with some random depressed college student on goodreads omg.